Little Man/Kaden K/Brother Bear,
I still can’t believe I agreed. He had been joking about it for months – the “number three.” I joked right along with him and silently said a little prayer, hoping he wouldn’t actually do what we’d teased about for so long. And then Father’s Day came along, and you guessed it … he asked for one thing and one thing only. I thought about it long and hard. Everything in me wanted to dismiss it, but it just didn’t feel right to be so cold to the man I’ve loved so dearly for the past 12 years. So I asked, “Do you still want to do this knowing how badly I don’t want to do it?” His answer?
Well okay then.
After dinner, I got everything ready. I prepared the “things” as well as my mind and my emotions. Sure, it’s no big deal. But to me, it is. To me, it’s a defining part of who you are. And as I dropped your perfect curls to the ground, I was sad. It wasn’t just your hair; there were memories there. Part of your character. Your spunk. Your attitude.
Now 5 days later, I know you’re unchanged inside. You look older. You look like a handsome little boy. My handsome little boy. But I still stand by what I said – never again. Dada got his way, but only this time. From here on out, it’s my call. As long as those sweet little curls come back once again … they better come back again.
Enjoy your cool summer, bro. You may look different on the outside, but you’re still the crazy brother bear we love oh so much! And don’t worry … it’ll grow back!
All my love,
Now, please visit Katie’s blog to see what the past month has had in store – she’s got a fabulous letter to her son!!!